41472196 seconds.. And still counting..

No, it's not about how long I been with someone or anything. Sorry to disappoint you guys.

(i know it's been awhile since my last post in this blog. I don't feel like blogging lately, but uh. I kinda need a place where i can put all my mind without being judged. Well, paper seems a bit boring because they dont talk to you nor answer your question though. And yes, i'm aware that i can't really assume my readers will always love every single posting of mine, but still, i feel safer here).

I'm posting from Singapore by the way, it's almost my 16th month here. That's what I'm about to talk about. Confused? Me too.

There's some part of me that changed, definitely. I didn't censor my F word with stars anymore like I did a year back, that's one. I still censor my B word though, sometimes..

My English got a lot better but fyeah alhamdulillah I still keep my indonesian-american accent. Sorry, but singlish is just not cool.

I've improved my cooking skill as well! Thanks to Laura Vitale, Gordon Ramsay, Chef John, What's For Lunch Honey and Dessert For Breakfast :3 I've learn lots of new dishes, especially Italian and British. I'll put some recipes and step-by-steps someday, promise ^^ and oh I'm too lazy to put up any links, that's what google are for, yes?

i've made lots of new friends, awesome ones, 'different' ones, annoying ones, you name it. Got chances to get to know some inspiring people as well (:

I've been through my hard times. When i started losing faith, postponed and even missed some of my prayers without feeling guilty. I broke my promise to my parents to continuously reciting Quran everyday, fall asleep without praying, and stuff like that. Thank God I'm still pork-free. However, I've become myself again these days, looking forward to be better too actually, let's see how it goes.

Another hard time is when I dont feel I'll ever find a true friend here. Just so you know, to me, it's still Indonesians who have have the best sincere smile among the others. No matter if they're javanese, chinese, they will be true to you. I've tried involving myself to their conversation and it really is difficult to keep up with them for more than half an hour without talking about others. In bad way, yes.
At first I thought Singaporeans are very individual, cuek, and just minding their own business only. That might be true in some ways, where they will be busy on their phones, not paying attention to their surroundings, even if there's some unusual case (like when there's a guy with very huge blue kribo hair enter the MRT or when I took off my 15cm heels after wearing it for almost 7 hours on my way home -it feels good to walk barefoot! I should try it more often!) people will only give it a glance and then look away. Quite frankly, I'm surprised people give no damn about those stuffs, but when it's actually about their friends.. Whoa. They can talk about anything, their sense of fashion, their 80's haircut, their not so fair skin, their pimples, anything. And don't pull that bullshit to me that i still can be good friends with them ignoring that fact. i do know what kind of reaction these people expect. Definitely not answers like, "Hahaha, i don't know.. i don't think she's that weird actually.." or "hehe, umm.. Don't you think it's kinda mean?"
No. Just No.

Indonesian friends.. Yes our people are still the best. At least I can laugh with them, being silly and goofy together, talk about simple things in our daily life, movies, songs, admit some weird fact about me, until share deep thoughts. I found some people that truly mean a lot to me. The awesomeness we share are priceless and I never regret that. However, I do have to adapt with them as well though. I'm a typical house person. I dont hang out much, actually, and i'm not really into malls. I prefer some kind of real refreshing like adventuring around, or go into some really new places and take pictures, watching people, write and sketch something about it, and getting inspired. Moreover, I'm the only kid in my family, so my mom and dad are quite protective. I have to be home by 9 or less than that. My mom even sometimes still reluctant to allow me to go out with friends, even only go out for lunch or movies. Well yeah, just my mom being a mom.
Anyway, living in Singapore totally change that. I've went out til late, til morning sometimes. In some occassions i did enjoy that, because i did have a good time. But there are some of them that i sort of regret because it's just not worth my time. I din't even put my whole self there. I was staying only to be polite, or because I want them to think I'm that kind of 'fun' person. Yeah, that was stupid. Nevermind, I learn my lesson.

What else? Damn, this is a freakin long post. And even worse, I posted it from my iPad because my laptop is having trouble with its wifi adapter or something, haven't repaired it yet. Why is it worse? because I can't upload any picture except I inserted the URL -which for that it's still need to be uploaded, duh. And I'm not an apple person anyway, so, yeah, I dont find this thing is that magnificient or anything.

So, that's about it. I'm feeling a lot better now. Overall, I did not regret my decision to move here, there are some positive side though, like me being more independet, get to know 9gag, visiting some awesome places and finding lots of cute stuffs I didnt find in Indonesia, being a tour guide, and oh for real I did not regret anything at all okay? I just want to be graduated as soon as possible and leave this country As Fucking Soon As Possible.
I'm sure i'm not gonna bother missing it tho, maybe just the freedom, and MRT, and the internet connection.
And Desigual.
And the distros, maybe?

See, look at me and my funny brain.

i need new goals.

ah it's been awhile. sorry for my followers, and sorry for those who already left their footprints, i'll get my ass there *on your blogs, i mean, dont take it seriously wrongly* as soon as i have spare time. thanks for visiting, by the way, i'm honored. rly :)

what's new? i just started my new term 2 days ago and i have good feeling about this, thank god. and yah, so far i keep my promises and also keep making new ones, i need to be a better person. for real. better moslem, better child, better student, better girl, better friend, better team mate, better worker -ah ya, i work on some projects, wish me luck xD-

i just wanna share something, 2 years ago, i was really inspired by a blog of one of my senior. and i promise myself: i'll make a blog and make it as good as hers. i created blogger account, customize it, keep it updated, promote it to friends, write some good stuffs, join some bloggers club such as #KK -and met inspiring people there-, until now, i got more followers than her *alhamdulillah* and look what i've done to this blog? neglect it. and so so sorry about that, i promise i'll write more, both in english and indonesian.

i mean, at first i'm kinda proud of myself, and realize that i need some motivation to keep growing, new challenges, new tests, new competitors maybe, i can't get motivated only by myself. however, because my 2011 has been great, i met lots of new awesome friends -and guys, got new unforgettable experiences, got what i always wanted: freedom. i started to enjoy my life to the fullest, started to love myself for who i am, being grateful, and don't give a damn about other people's life.

is it good? abso-freakin-lutely.
but then i think i get kinda decreased, i mean, my skill, energy, creativity, innovation, all those good things i used to have when i actually have a goal.

just few days ago, i found a blog of an indonesian student schooling in singapore. she is a writer, a fuckin good writer, i'm not bullshitting. her vocabs, her tone, gosh i'm jealous to death. and she also reads. great books, which also totally inspires me a lot.

and there she is, a new idol -if i may say- a new inspiration even though i dont know her personally, never met her before but she friends with lots of friends of mine. what can i say? her popularity is undebatable.
should i make a new goal, to be a better writer in english, learn more and more and more vocabularies, start to really work on my grammar since my english isn't good enough yet (my english stays in mediocre level compared to my friends here in Singapore, you know, dont say that i'm exaggerating things). and yeah, i also have some other people to look up to, i got a super smart friend from India -seriously, remembering him and all of his A+ helps me a lot to study more and reach better scores (i still got some Bs, wish me luck again).

it's almost the end of 2nd month of 2012, and i havent reach anything yet except i spend more time with my family and start to love them more *which for me, it's quite an achievement. i'll read more good books, write more, spend time on internet browsing thru websites that are actually resourceful, pray more, smile and laugh more, and finding out who i am because i'm not quite sure yet.

sorry for the long post, but hey,
i'm totally ready.

don't make me hate blogging.

i'm not here to please anybody.

i mean, yes, at some point i do want to make some people happy, and feeling comfortable, and all.

but this is not the way it supposed to be, this is wrong.

i start writing to be read.

which is not exactly what i wanted to and i planned to at the very first time.

this is my personal blog, my territory. i'm sorry, but it is.

"i dont wanna hurt her." you just did.

boy, i'm a lil frustated here.
c'mon, tell me, what's so joyful, what's so interesting about making fun of a girl who loves you?
it's so freakin ridiculous that you don't wanna lose a fan, so you keep it. then you say, "i'm just being nice. you know, to a friend." or even that lame line, "i dont wanna hurt her."

man, sorry to say, your blabbering is bullshit.

if you don't like her from the very beginning, show her
if you think that you might like her, but not yet. tell her.
if you like another girl, avoid her. never make a girl a second choice, or even worse, make her a back-up plan.
if you don't wanna hurt her, don't hold her when she wants to move on or makes some distance.
and yes, idiot. you can still be friends, dont use that as your reason. be a gentleman. grow up. don't take her for granted.

last, if you want a friendship for benefits thingy or relationship without status, fine. but discuss it with her, is she okay with that? are you guys ready for the risk? no authority, no right of being jealous, it's about freedom,  and stuffs like that?
think as a man, not a little boy. such a shame of your age, dude.

"never show that you kinda have a thing for a girl while actually you dont. 
it's unfair that you keep waving from the bottom of the cliff, but when she fall for you, you run away, dont have any intention to catch her at all." - Venus Aretha

P.S. don't get me wrong. this is not my story, just inspired by three friends, who weirdly experience same cases today. hopefully it's not with the same guy.

again, that L.

you know that weird feeling?
when you secretly look at him from the corner of your eyes
and each movement is just flawless
then you giggle for no reason?

you know that weird feeling?
when you text and you can't get rid off that big smile in your eyes
and you still stuck in bliss even if his swinging mood affecting yours?

you know that weird feeling?
when your hands, shoulders, or head touch accidentally
and you can feel your face getting warmer and you can't help it but bite your lips a lil bit?

you know that weird feeling?
when you deep inside know he was about to say the word but you actually keep denying it
because you're afraid that it's just a dream, simply because this is just too good to be true?

you know that weird feeling?
when you got that happiest feeling but all you can do is just smile a little
and everybody can just tell, this girl is living a fairytale..

you know that weird feeling?
when you try to hold back from flying too high since you're afraid of falling and get hurt
then when he hold you, you suddenly feel relieved and believe everything's gonna be okay.
or even if it's not happily ever after, sure it's worth it..

you know?
oh i know. i absolutely know.

#2 gradation and vribal

i did this with amery and friends, and pleaaaase anybody can tell me where i can get this kind of chalk? umm, it's kind of mix between chalk and crayon. and kind of powdery also. anybody?

10th grade school project. though it's a bit messy but i love it so much! and now Al Hikmah keeps it -,-

in the middle of my boredom. err, it's supposed to be nebula, actually. but if you search nebula in google, this will be just.. almost nothing hahahha

HERE WE GOOOO, my favorite and definitely my specialty. hahaha, i called it vribal *venus's tribal* :p i draw this eeeverywhere when i got bored or got nothing to do. want some proof? take a look at my lesson book hihihi

so, this is actually one of my 'serious' project. actually i did this because at first i came to singapore, all students in the class seem awesome and has talent. i feel kind of, challenged, you know? so, here's all the artworks on march 2011 hehe. and for you who's asking, yes the black thingy is mine too. you just need colorful crayon + 1 black crayon + paper + needle/ cutter/ iron ruler *last is my favorite actually. if lots of you wanna know how to do it, (leave comment/ message/ ym me) i'll make a post about it later hehe.

i hope i wont get bored about these thingies too easily, 'cause i do love making em! :3


aaaand.. this is my 77th post! yay :*

aaaa *sorry just blabbering

i'm in love with this blogging thingy! hahaha omy i started this blog on march 2011 dan rasanya seneng banget liat stats yang nambahnya tiap hari makin 'wow'-ing (oke, saya amatir disini, entah ya kalo ada yang blognya diview sampe ribuan ato puluh ribuan perhari, saya yg penting readers saya enjoy reading it aja udah seneng kok hihi) dan, saya nggak pernah ngeh sama followers thingies sampe ngeliat temen temen yang followersnya udah puluhan gitu. ngeliatnya kagum tapi jujur saya nggak terlalu berambisi buat dapet follower yang segitu banyaknya hahaha ya sadar dirilah blog baru, bukan anak eksis juga :p

jujur saya udah buat blog hampir sepuluh kali :)) blog pertama saya, lupa url nya apa dan passnya apa juga, isinya cuma sapaan nggakpenting plus agak norak juga sih hahahaha itu waktu sd, lalu smp saya buat venus**.blogspot.com yang astaga, alaynya mampus. lalu berlanjut ke 3-4 blog lain yang berakhir dengan tidak terurus dan lupa password *sigh* terakhir ada thestarisblack.blogspot.com yang masuk taraf lumayan. ada juga multiply, wordpress, livejournal, tumblr, semua berakhir dengan tidak terurus. maaf :|

eh saya mau menunjukkan sesuatu hehe ^^

oh dear I can't help it, i mean, seeee? please nobody just view my profile anymore, let this stay this beautiful way :') *unless you wanna make it until 7777 then go ahead :D

okay, so, i know more people, with their ah-may-zing blogs. people who can write such wonderful stories, or make their blahs a lot more interesting, also people who has gifted hands to make art thingies (okay, for you who wait, i'll post it right after this post xD)

for those who asks for exchanging link, umm, i dont know when i'll start making my blogroll though hehe, but deep deep thanks for you who mentioned me in your superb blogs :3

and ya, i kinda have lots of things in my drafts though, honestly, i have much more in my drafts than what i have published. i've wrote a lot, fiction stories, pictures, my theories, hangouts, and stuff. i just.. some of them i havent completed yet because i just suddenly stuck and lack of idea, the other, i'm still looking for the right time.

also, for you guys who already a 12th grader, your journey starts now dahling ;)

stop procrastinating, stop lazying around, and start think about your future, your dream university..

and baby, prove me you can reach it, cause i know you will :)

last, just again :p

<3 !!!

do they?

it's just.. unspoken.

two young teenagers sit on silence. avoiding each other's eyes and busy on their mind. drowning. deeper. with some touch of memories which come like knifes. poking, scraping, scratching, and finally undermine their entire defense..

Girl:
he never make any effort for me, he doesnt even wanna fight for me, he said he miss me but he doesnt do anything, he told me that he loves me, but he never show me enough.

Guy: 

i'm tired of never being good enough, why she's asking so much? isnt it just enough that i let her know she's the one and only? i tell her that i love her, and mean it. what should i do then?

Girl:

he never shows that he loves me in front of his guy friends, with those jerks he acts differently, he even doesnt want me to hang out very often with his guy friends.. what else the reason except he's shy and embarrassed being with a girl like me? yes yes, i know i'm not that pretty, that hot, that attractive or that attention-center-diva. whatever boy, doesnt he know that i just wanna make friends, anyway, some of them are funny and i enjoy being around em.

Guy:

for god's sake, there's always always a line beside relationship and friendship. and yes, there's some jackass in my gang but they appreciate me and kind to me. i love them and i dont want to have any problem with you if you figure it out and start commenting or giving me advice about it. i'm avoiding arguments okay? otherwise when i see you hang with them i'm also afraid that you could, probably, fall for one of them who's maybe more gentle than me, or a guitar cutie, or.. hell yes, i'm avoiding that possibility. with a little bit of jealousy. and duh, please stop being so insecure about yourself, you're not just pretty. well, you're beautiful..

Girl:

sometimes i can feel him staring and kinda make me blush, i think he thinks i'm kinda gorgeous.. but why he never tell me that? sometimes i also want to get compliment doesnt he know?

Guy:

to be honest,  i'm not that kind of corny-frontal boys, or romantic sorta thingy. i thought she already know by the way i treat you.. otherwise, if she can't accept me just the way i am  then why did we even start this?

Girl:

sometimes i want him to start opening up about what he really feels, he seem just okay with everything, even for me it looked like he doesnt care at all.. i want that serious conversation so we both can explain what each other feels.. ah, he'll never be able to get whole mind on those kind of heavy stuff. he prefers having fun around and things. anyway, i think it has no point anymore now..

Guy:

not rarely i've been thinking to spontaneously tell her what's on my mind in some good situation. like, you know, we just enjoy doing our things together and suddenly i pops out something, in kinda joking way so she can accept it positively. but, at the same time i dont think she can.. and now, look at her, she's about to end this.. it's just too late.

Girl:

"We're just, for some reason.. not meant to be, i guess.." But I love you! Please say something to make me stay!

Guy:

"So.. that's what you want.. I, I understand. Wish you a better life and thanks for everything." Damn, I dont know how long will it take to get over this, but I need to appreciate her decision..

(Last hug)

Girl: 

(holding tears) it's always like this, i'm the only one who's hurt and he'll just go back to his friends. laughing. totally okay.

Guy: 

(looking up, close his eyes) then she's gonna go to her girlfriends, go shopping, flirt to new boys and being just alright. haha yes i knew it..

(Pull over, making some distance and look at each other eyes. Both of them are unreadable, too many emotions there so it's blurred..

Girl:

"Bye." I guess he never really loved me..

Guy:

"Bye." I guess she never really loved me..

originally created by me.

Today Was a Fairytale - Taylor Swift

Today was a fairytale, you were the prince
I used to be a damsel in distress
You took me by the hand, and you picked me up at six
Today was a fairytale, today was a fairytale
Today was a fairytale, I wore a dress
You wore a dark grey t-shirt
You told me I was pretty when I looked like a mess
Today was a fairytale
Time slows down whenever you're around
But can you feel this magic in the air?
It must have been the way you kissed me
Fell in love when I saw you standing there
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale
Today was a fairytale
You've got a smile that takes me to another planet
Every move you make, everything you say is right
Today was a fairytale
Today was a fairytale
All that I can say is now it's getting so much clearer
Nothing made sense until the time I saw your face
Today was a fairytale
Time slows down whenever you're around
Yeah yeah
But can you feel this magic in the air?
It must have been the way you kissed me
Fell in love when I saw you standing there
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale
Time slows down whenever you're around
I can feel my heart, it's beating in my chest
Did you feel it?
I can't put this down
But can you feel this magic in the air?
It must have been the way you kissed me
Fell in love when I saw you standing there
It must have been the way
But can you feel this magic in the air?
It must have been the way you kissed me
Fell in love when I saw you standing there
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale
Today was a fairytale

(Ini bukan copas, saya ngetik sendiri sambil dengerin lagunya berbelas belas kali haha)

Time slows down whenever you're around
I can feel my heart, it's beating in my chest

there's this guy ..

and frankly i'm soooo tired seeing his name this often.

soooo sick having those girls message me not because they wanna be friends with me but because they wanna dig infos about him.

also soooo bored having that kind of convo over and over again.

yes, when there came a day that we talked like usual.. not really usual though. we finally talked deep things face-to-face, not by phone or messages. and the way he talked about few common things before finally hit the jackpot in the end is kinda cute. unusual, but cute. i do love it when somebody ask me or say things to me frontally, honestly, but in such not too harsh way. haha who wants to be hurt anyway?

again when there came a day when something is said in such a, movielish way lol. with the wind blow, quiet-calm-situation and stuff. it's uhm, nice. i feel.. special. but really, does shattered pieces can be one again just after two-three conversations? It was ruined, and then blank for months. can we? in fact, seeing him now with his awesome life, I believe he does deserve someone who's right, and deserve him more than me. I know I said that words too much but really, lots of girls better than me you know --"

i dont wanna make wrong move again, my life ever be such an adventurous jungle just because i choose wrong decision. fun, but annoyingly frustrating.

now? how?
am I gonna start something all over again? from the top?

probably the sentence 'you can't get over somebody a hundred percent' is one of my favorite now. and my favorite question now is, why this time? it's a little too late.

however, late means late.

yeah I understand that we never know what tomorrow brings. we will never know if we don't try. I probably gonna regret this, maybe I let go somebody who's uhm, truly loves me? or love me a lot more than somebody that I secretly wait? I don't know.
those cliche thingy, right? you never know what you have until you lose them. but another cliche stuff also say we have to stop regretting past and worrying of our future too much. be thankful of today. solve today's problem immediately. then? surely, be happy.

I probably sound like really evil now, a selfish person, a stupid girl, and so. maybe I also hurt some people's feelings when they read this.

But to me, I just realize I overthink things. I overreact stuffs. I have to stop converting what ifs and do/decide something spontaneously perhaps? so i gotta back off. I'll 'bury' myself alone, kinda stay away from him and those dangerous people for awhile i guess.

i just wanna be with me and myself now. and ah yes, my stars. pure stars without heart shape. or probablyyyyy just probably, kinda silently waiting for somebody who's right to me this time. someone who has no buts. again, for this time. not gonna matter that too much cause it may be someone who I might gonna find his buts, or he's the one who find my buts someday. It's not like I'm gettin married or what, huh? haha how I miss childhood when im being purely 100% single. not thinking about guys, and those complicated shits.

hibernating.
starts now. now.

(nowplaying: john mayer - who says)

Who says I can’t get stoned?
Turn off the lights and the telephone
Me in my house alone
Who says I can’t get stoned?

Who says I can’t be free?
From all of the things that I used to be
Re-write my history
Who says I can’t be free?

It’s been a long night in New York City
It’s been a long night in Baton Rouge
I don’t remember you looking any better
But then again I don’t remember you

Who says I can’t get stoned?
Call up a girl that I used to know
Fake love for an hour or so
Who says I can’t get stoned?

Who says I can’t take time?
Meet all the girls on the county line
Wait on fate to send a sign
Who says I can’t take time?

It’s been a long night in New York City
It’s been a long night in Austin too
I don’t remember you looking any better
But then again I don’t remember you

Who says I can’t get stoned?
Plan a trip to Japan alone
Doesn’t matter if I even go
Who says I can’t get stoned?
Mmhmm

It’s been a long night in New York City
It’s been a long time since 22 16
I don’t remember you looking any better
But then again I don’t remember, don't remember you

but,

once in a lifetime maybe you'll find someone

who steals your attention

but you're still too young to do anything

once in a lifetime maybe you'll find someone

who makes you fall for

but has no intention to catch you

once in a lifetime maybe you'll find someone

who introduces you to lots of new things and playing a role as teacher and opener of your gate

but can't continue accompanying you to the rest of your journey

once in a lifetime maybe you'll find someone

who just plays around when you think it really means a thing

and gets serious just when you start take it as jokes

once in a lifetime maybe you'll find someone

who does whatever it takes to win your heart

but you simply just not interested

once in a lifetime maybe you'll find someone

who loves you the wrong way

once in a lifetime maybe you'll find someone

who you feel comfortable with and also always missing spending time with you

but never say anything at all until time separates you both

once in a lifetime maybe you'll find someone

who treats you right, adore every single thing of you even details that you hate it,

but in the wrong time

once in a lifetime maybe you'll find someone

who seems to be the right one

but belongs to someone else

once in a lifetime maybe you'll find someone

that keeps coming and leaving

until you don't know what really is the reality

once in a lifetime maybe you'll find someone

that stays with you, you may talk with that person for hours without pretending to be someone else, accept you for who you are, caring and reminds you important stuffs

someone who brings positive influence for you and somehow makes you a better person

until you stuck in a confusion: love or friendship?

once in a lifetime maybe you'll find someone

who you fight for, who you think is worth it, who you spends most of your time to wait and please that person because you think someday things will change and your dreams will come true

but sadly, you were wrong

and you're really lucky,

if once in a lifetime you find that someone

who has no buts

but still wait for the right time.

simply because you're smart enough to think maybe someday you'll find the but,

or wait until time prove it

that finally,

you were right.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FRANCHY GIVANI!

so dear ..

YOU'RE ALREADY 17 !!! WOHOOOOOO  ❤

we may not chat everyday or thinkin of our times every single minutes,

but we already know that we care, we do care.

we may not have such bunch of photos of million hangouts 

but we already know how much we love each other

use your precious time wisely, spend it for something (or someone) worth it :p *you know who

stay happy, stay amazing, stay Vancans that i know

tho you're already perfect for me with ll your greatness and flawness i still wish you'll be a better person, girl, child, student and muslim.

may Allah always protect you and lighten your way.

p.s. semoga nggak cengeng lagi, lebih dewasa, lebih sabar, lebih pengertian, lebih ngga jelesan, moodnya ngga terlalu heboh naik turunnya, semoga tambah keren di sekolah nilai-nilainya tambah bagus-bagus PLUS berkurang malesnya, amiin amiin :D

*i already make this loooong sms text and send it at 12.00

and you know whaaaaat?

it wasnt sent.

because her number was 0853... in my phone. it's supposed to be +62853... since i send it from singapore x_x

so yeah, i was pissed off of myself buahahaha

our very first hangout, the first time we meet and we were like already being bestfriends for years :p

sutos, again :p well we love nyutos, aint we? :D

see how georgeous she is? *jealous* *envy* :p

with nadine. where? SUTOS! :))

we had such great great memories, sleepovers, cried on each other side, chats, laugh together, curhat moments

well i'm her bunda tho she's older than me huahahaha

we have BUNCH of other pictures, so do some photobox shoots, but it's not here T.T it's on my laptop in surabaya uurgh how i wish i can post that. and how i wish i can be there with her on her birthday! :((

well okay then.

soo last,

she loves Selena Gomez (well, after sleeping, eating, and cow stuffs :p)

xoxo, lots of love and hugs and kisses

your buncans :*

aren't they sweet? huhuhu i'm jealous.
well, someday i'll have my own fairytale. and so do you!
..and when you find it, be happy, stop worrying about what happen next and stay true to yourself and to him/her :D

whatchathink?

#Libra is a sign much given to sentiment and romanticism. They do all they can to make their partner happy. 

#Libra main motivation is to keep matters harmonious and gracious.

#Libra character is a blend of ambition and determination on one hand and diplomacy on the other.

#Libra will think carefully before saying yes and will rarely do anything they don't want to do.

#Libra are all about partnerships and groups, they are the glue that hold a group together.

#Libra should never undermine their own integrity and hold out until their dreams do come true.

#Libra have potential of being a good leader with their diplomatic ways.

#Libra do not like making decisions, they want a little of everything.

#Libra indecisiveness is caused by fear, their fear that a wrong decision will make everything come crashing down around them. 

#Libra have to learn how to deal with confrontation.

#Libra will never forget a birthday, anniversary or other special dates.

#Libra show understanding of the other person's point of view, trying to resolve any differences by compromise.

#Libra discover they can not only be creative, but it provides an opportunity to express diverse sides to their personalities.

Sometimes #Libra desire to please others is so strong, you will actually go out of your way.

Every adolescent #Libra fantasy is to find the Prince or Princess of their dreams.

#Libra fully gives him/herself to a partner, and you will remember every intimate moment in his or her arms.

#Libra is very insecure, they suffer from a lack of self confidence. 

#Libra most definitely a thinker — they like to use their mind to tackle problems. 

#Libra are the ultimate romantic. They love affection, even with their friends they hug them and give them gifts.

#Libra is projection and perspective, and the sense that compromise is instrumental in the search for balance. 

#Libra is pleasant, charming, and sociable.

#Libra tend to have a chameleon like personality captivating and confusing others.

#Libra can spend too much time and energy trying to get along with others and please them.

#Libra respond to admiration, praise and flattery, but only for a couple of seconds at a time.

#Libra puts a lot of stock in fairness, equality, and balance, both in their personal life and out in the world.

When approached in the right way #Libra have a hard time saying no to anything.

#Libra have potential of being a good leader, but but they are just too lazy to do the hard work required.

#Libra worship romance and seduction, can be extremely flirtatious and know how to please, excite and tease.

There's a fierce determination lurking just beneath #Libra surface. Never doubt it. 

Have fun, be yourself, you are almost guaranteed a good time with the easygoing, interesting #Libra.

Relating is natural for #Libra They aren't really happy unless they're trying to balance something.

#Libra have an intense desire for things such as love, sympathy and understanding.

To #Libra seduction is an art form.

#Libra are very passionate lovers and enjoy life.

#Libra is harmonic in dressing as you can find the balance between forms and colours.

#Libra hate complication.

taken from: 

@ZodiacZone

Librans personality: charming, diplomatic, doesn't let emotions get in the way, fair, sees all points of view, loves to think before they make up their mind, passionate, good with relationships, friendly, loves beauty, balance, and clothes, cosmopolitan, refined, amiable, sociable, happy, generous, realistic, gracious, affectionate, balanced, easy-going, elegant, flirtatious, committed, objective but can be indecisive, emotionally complex (but hate complication, haha librans --"), vague, dependent, distant, argumentative, depressed, exhausted, idealistic, superficial, self-indulgent, cares a lot about what other people think *damn!, vanity.

okay, so basically. start thinking what is the italic, bold, and large font size means by yourself haha, i think it's pretty much obvious.

extra..

#Capricorn self-sufficiency is often mistook for coldness, they are not as cold as they seem.

oh really? :p